It's been in the back of my mind for a long time now. I've been telling everyone what a cool experience it will be. And now, it's here. And now, I'm anxious. And now, there's no turning back.
I have packed my two bags (yes, just 2 for 4 months) and repacked them. I have shifted clothing from my bag I'm keeping with me in London and the one I'm storing at the airport approximately 20 times. Right now I'm pondering which pairs of shoes to bring, and if one pair of heels is enough (and by enough, I mean do I have room for more).
There's just so much that needs to be packed. I have 4 coats. Which take up most of my space. I wonder how many more shoes I could fit if I took one of those out? Hmmm.... Freeze but look sassy, or choose warmth and slightly less sass?
This conversation leads to one of my biggest fears about going there. I just know I'm going to be walking down the street and people are going to see me and say to themselves or their little red head friends "Hey look at that American girl!" I do it all the time here, but I'm intrigued and curious. I'm afraid there will be immediate assumptions, and not good ones. Like, I voted for Bush and view him as an idol, am a member of the NRA, don't care about the enviornment or the world, wear American flag underwear and hate Arabs. I know this is all ludacris but overcoming assumptions can be hard. All this of course is viewing America as great big suckage, and Europe as thebomb.com. Which is how I see the world viewing us, and this isn't factual but in my mind it's how Americans are seen.
Of course they should see me for the clumsy, well dressed, goofy, people loving girl I am. But, who can see that from a frist impression? Unless of course I trip on a crack in the sidewalk in my pink pumps while helping an elderly lady across the road while at the sametime doing a little jig trying to make a crying little girl laugh.
5 comments:
T minus 4 hours. Had my first "good" cry in the shower...I know it is only 4 months and you would be in Texas anyway but this is a little farther away. Anyone who gets to know you will love you. Stay yourself, stay beautiful and most of all stay funny! Experience all you can and I can't wait to hear that phone call when you say "so you want to hear something funny?"!
you put tea on your interests!!! that is why we get along!!!
Hope you have a wonderful time!!!!
You are going to rock their world, they are getting the best and the brightest with our Karlene! Love you!
dude you still better send me a postcard and have fun!
Kar - miss you already and you don't ever live anywhere near me (unless you accept our bribe and eventually move to the real Sunshine State.) Love you bunches -- have a blast.
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